The baywalk where we cultivated what we have.
Its amazing how we quickly became so close. Could it be by faith that we met that night? What if you never helped me that night? What if your phone never found its way in my bag? Until now I still cannot believe how we came to know each other. I mean it's so cliche! How many other people have met their future partner at the bar or because their phone magically got in someones bag? It was probably by faith that made our paths cross.
Who could have known that we were meant to be for each other? Funny how time flies so fast when we were just sitting at the baywalk talking about how our lives would go, only to realize that we have been sitting on that bench for 5 hours when the sun bids us farewell. Was it love at first sight? Probably only god knows why we met that night and why we both ended up being closeted chinky lovers who grew up in this tropical country.
A few days ago on our 18th month celebration when you suddenly just held my hand inside the ferris wheel and said "Even if they try to break us apart, promise me you will never give up on us..". If that means to give up everything for the sake of keeping our love alive then I promise to not give up on us.. There is just something special when your hands touch mines. It makes me feel loved and secure.
Just remember our plan! A year from now after I graduate we would reveal to everyone our relationship and finally come out of the closet. We will accept whatever challenges our family throws at us.. Even at the expense of getting disowned as long as we have each other and that we are both ready to face real life. I really just hope that both our families would accept this forbidden love we have. We would probably set a good/bad example of what true love is to our younger generation families. Again all I really hope for is acceptance..
The last quarter of 2015 would be the year where we would gamble our faith all for the sake of love. Hopefully none of us would give up on each other and that by then we will be ready to face what we have to face. Remember the day I admitted to you I liked you when we played 21 questions on our first ever movie together? "Being this way is not bad" you said as you hugged me that night. Cheng.. I love you.. I think my life would suck without you.. You are the one that make my darkest days bright. You always know how to cheer me up when im sad. Cheng, I love you so much and I know I have been such a bad boy at times when I go drinking with my friends and give you the burden of picking me up at the bar even if you told me not to go drinking. This 2014 I will try to be a better boyfriend and try to always listen to you.. Even when I think you are wrong, you always end being right. Its funny noh? But please stop smoking najud this year! I hate it when you smoke.. I love you so much that I dont want those cigarettes to hurt your body and your smoke will also hurt me na.. So lets be good this 2014 ok Cheng? I love you!!
Sorry for this mushy wushy entry guys. My mind was all just love love love at the moment. BTW The Lost Boy, thanks for that really thoughtful email you sent me a few days ago :) Because of your letter I sort of came up with this letter to devote my love for my love Cheng ;)