I feel so angry and hurt but I don't want to stay in this state.
I really want to vent out right now. I want my friends to know that I have been fooled by that bastard.
I don't want to answer his calls, read his messages(Thank god for the blocking feature in my phone), or even have anything to do with him anymore. Time to clear my room of things that come from him. There are pictures to burn and memories to be forgotten.
Fck! Im so angry!! Of all the people why me? Why have I not expected this to happen? Why me? Damn it! Why me? Why me!! There is small part of me that wants to know why you did this to me, but there is this big part of me that wants to stuff you in a box and drown you. "Let me explain" was the last message I read from you. Explain what!? What is there to explain? I don't even want to hear anything about it. Just leave me alone.
I was waiting in the coffee shop right across your office to give you an early surprise for our 17 months but instead you gave me a surprise by seeing you with someone else in PUBLIC. You asshole. You bitch. You whore. I baked a cake for the first time for you. We were suppose to go home with a cake-filled stomach but instead I drove home alone with the cake still rotting at the back of my car. What happened to being partners for life? Are you not happy about us? Where is the "us" in Trust? I trusted you but you turned me into a fool.