Sunday, November 24, 2013

Broken and Angry.

I feel so angry and hurt but I don't want to stay in this state.
I really want to vent out right now. I want my friends to know that I have been fooled by that bastard.
I don't want to answer his calls, read his messages(Thank god for the blocking feature in my phone), or even have anything to do with him anymore. Time to clear my room of things that come from him. There are pictures to burn and memories to be forgotten.

Fck! Im so angry!! Of all the people why me? Why have I not expected this to happen? Why me? Damn it! Why me? Why me!! There is small part of me that wants to know why you did this to me, but there is this big part of me that wants to stuff you in a box and drown you. "Let me explain" was the last message I read from you. Explain what!? What is there to explain? I don't even want to hear anything about it. Just leave me alone.

I was waiting in the coffee shop right across your office to give you an early surprise for our 17 months but instead you gave me a surprise by seeing you with someone else in PUBLIC. You asshole. You bitch. You whore. I baked a cake for the first time for you. We were suppose to go home with a cake-filled stomach but instead I drove home alone with the cake still rotting at the back of my car. What happened to being partners for life? Are you not happy about us? Where is the "us" in Trust? I trusted you but you turned me into a fool.

28 comments:

  1. i don't know exactly what happened but there could be a reason for this.

    Maybe you needed to know that he is not the one for you or maybe it's just a small test for both of you.

    everything will be alright.

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    1. I feel so much better right now after a whole day of destressing. Hopefully this won't affect my studies

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  2. This is heartbreaking. Buti na lang at nahuli mo siya, para natapos na. Just think if kelan nya pa kaya sinimulang gawin yun? Geez.

    You know what you should do? Make him feel na siya ang mas nawalan dahil sa ginawa nya. Make him regret this. Never show him weaknes; show him improvement now na wala na siya.

    You can do it Simon. My heart goes out to you.

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    1. True. Before I met him I was independent and without him I still am independent. What does he have that I need? diba.. maybe love? Pero love will always find its way

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  3. Angry sex? I volunteer as tribute! Top ka naman yata di ba? Charot

    We're here to listen. Wish I could call you via Sun Cell...

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    1. *wahahahaha!* Lakas tawa ko sa comment mo Seth. Lukaret ka talaga! Lipad ka papunta Cebu, kasi nandun si Simon eh.

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    2. @Seth
      Call me? Hmmm hahaha maybe we can start with a few exchange of emails :) Ako Top or Bottom?? Hmm lets find out soon ;) :)

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    3. Uy Simon, may lovey-dovey na yang si Seth. *hehe*

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    4. Oh my gulay! Joke nga pala un Seth no offense sa hubby mo. Savior ka geosef haha

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    5. hihihi keri lang. di ko alam email mo, shoot me a message moifuette@gmail.com

      fierce and love,

      Seth

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  4. I'm still speechless. And honestly this has shaken me. :'(

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    1. At first I was really hurt and angry but somehow now I am pretty sure I am sort of over it.. Though there is still that heavy feeling in my chest that just won't go away :(

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  5. It would have been more prudent to let him explain. :) But, if I were in your case, I would most likely shut the bastard off.

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    1. Im not ready to listen to his side of the story or even look at him again.. I feel so much better now though compared to this morning

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  6. Hay this is heartbreaking...
    keep strong and if you do find the courage, hear his explanation at the least...

    Kaya mo yan, keep writing, keep yourself busy and don't let this get you in the negative way no matter how hard it is, i know it's easier said than done but kaya mo yan

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    1. I am afraid to hear words that might hurt me even more if I listen to his explanation. Im just not ready yet..

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    2. if you are still vulnerable, then don't. give yourself a time and when you're ready-- listen to what he has to say not for reconciliation (douchebags don't deserve you) but for closure.

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  7. oh em your blog is young... and i just didn't see that coming too soon.

    howell at least, natuklasan mo na agad. :(

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  8. It's okay to feel angry. It's okay to be mad and upset. Throw things, yell, scream, cry -- and then after that you'll feel that you're much much better than before. stronger and wiser.

    Don't blame yourself. You did not do anything. He's just a douchebag and you need to move on. I know, it's not easy to move on but it always starts within you.

    I promise you that it'll be better and you will be awesome :)

    btw, liquors, sex, flirting with others and what not are just temporary lousy diversional acts. at the end of the day the hurt and the pain is still there. It will not help you. and no matter what you do.. it already happened and nothing can take away the pain. yes! even sex... so forget about it. I know you can do better than that *winks*

    sorry for the unsolicited advice

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  9. oh my, I know how that feels. It's like all the happiness has been sucked out of you. I hope you can weather it and come out a better you.

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    1. It feels like life in complete darkness.

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  10. i know, you can make it! :)
    Sabi nga sa microbiology (at ni Kelly Clarkson), what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. :)
    (just to cheer you up. :))

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    1. haha I hate microbio.. That subject is just too complicated

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  11. well, di ko din naman gusto yun. lagi kasing sinasabi ng Prof yung "quote" tuwing may sakit na dinidiscuss. hahahah
    :)

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  12. oh my. heartbreaking it is. u ok now?

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